This blog has good energy.

Everytime I think about posting something on this blog, I can only think about things that make me feel happy, or beautiful, or something like that. That's good though. This blog is teaching me how to finally accept myself just the way I am.

Everything I've always wanted was to see something beautiful in me, and I think I can finally see it. Even though people can't agree with me, I actually think I'm not an ugly person, and I never was. Society made me feel ugly. Bullies made me feel ugly. Stupid boys (that I used to like and didn't like me back mostly) made me feel ugly.

But now I'm realizing that I don't need this in my life anymore. I am a beautiful girl, outside as well as in. And that's why I made this list during class (as usual). I'm really proud of myself.

~ Reasons to believe I'm fucking beautiful:

01. I have a beautiful body (it's thin and long - not that being chubby and short is something bad, but I know people who would kill to have my shape);
02. I have a beautiful smile (I think it's my best feature);
03. I have beautiful eyes (they're dark brown, which means that they don't need to be light to be beautiful, also I have awesome eyelashes!);
04. I have cute feet (even though people might think they're ugly, I love my long feet);
05. I have beautiful breasts (I don't like them nude, but they look good in a bra);
06. I have long nails (they grow really fast and they're long even when I cut them);
07. I have a nice ass! (I don't give a shit about my stretch marks anymore, my ass is not big but it's round and cute);
08. I have a good singing voice and I can play guitar (maybe I should start my own band, huh?);
09. I am funny (I think I'm the funniest person I've ever known);
10. I am a good listener and can give good advices (or not...);
11. I am a dreamer (most people would say it's a bad thing, but it helps me to make it through the day);
12. I am not afraid to fall in love (in the end I always get hurt, but I am way too hopeful; actually, I love to fall in love);
13. I am not an empty person (I have feelings, ideas, thoughts and hope. I am a deep kid).

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If you're reading this and have self esteem issues, I'd love to help you. Actually, I think you should make a list just like mine. It helps, and it works! You're beautiful, never forget, and don't let people tell you otherwise.

My new shirt is too sexy for me.

So I finally got my Jack Daniel's shirt, and now I can remove this item from my list on 43things.com!

Just look at this piece of beauty.
No, seriously, just look.

Destiny scares me to death.

You know what? Destiny is something scary. I've never thought about it but now I realize how weird it really is and how things actually work.

I've met this guy on Omegle and I fell in love with him. It was in 2009.
In the same year, I've met this girl - also on Omegle - and she became one of my best friends.
I used to talk about him to her all the freaking time, and then they started to talk. And then they became friends.
He lives in England and she lives in China.
She went on this trip to England and they finally met.
And now they're dating.

I don't know, but in my opinion, this is just way TOO scary. I mean, it all was supposed to happen. They both were supposed to be together, and I was the key. They were going to meet anyway, but I gave them a little help without even knowing.

And well... I don't know if I'm supposed to feel glad or stupid about the whole situation.

Because we all love drama clubs.

Today my friends and I had our first drama presentation at school. It was amazing, people loved it and we had lots of fun. I'm really happy for myself and my friends, because everything went according to our plans (almost everything, but we got through this).

I'm sorry for the pictures, I'm not a photographer...

Juliana, me and Leo at rehearsal.

Leonardo, Bruna and Gabriela at rehearsal.

I was an old lady!

Drama groups of 2011.

Leonardo, me and Caio. We're insane.

It was a good day. I'm happy. Nothing can get me down today. Yay. (:

Insecurity #1

My body hair is one of my biggest insecurities. I would never wear shorts or skirts because of my legs. Also I would never post pictures of my own legs on the internet, because you know, I'm an insecure person. 

Sometimes I think I'm the ugliest girl on Earth (for very stupid reasons, like... being almost 18 and never having a boyfriend, stuff like that), but it does not make sense, since I'm a person who can see beauty where no one else can.

So these days I've been trying to accept myself just the way I am, and I'm starting to like my hair leg. I don't think they're an insecurity anymore, because now I find it beautiful. Of course it takes time to finally accept yourself, but it's been working for me.

I don't think I'll regret posting these pictures here.

This morning, during class, I wrote something for me and for all the girls who think they're not beautiful enough, or good enough, for any reason. If you're one of these girls, I dedicate it to you.

STOP living this misery life.
Show yourself to the world.
Show them what you got.
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL.
Even if you don't think so,
someone else does.
There's someone out there waiting
for a girl like you, just take your time.
IF YOU'RE FAT,
skinny, wear braces, glasses, tall, short,
dark or light skinned, YOU ARE UNIQUE.
Don't listen to the haters.
Don't let people let you down.
You are AMAZING and LOVED.
Start loving yourself. Start today. No, better, start it NOW.
You look better when you're happy.
You look prettier when you're happy.
Don't waste your time with negative shit.
YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY JUST THE WAY YOU ARE.

Think about it.

I'm not a good writer at all, but I wrote it with all my heart. (:
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43things.com + CDs and DVDs.

Recently I've created an account on this website called 43 Things. This is where you can make a list of things you'd like to do. Here's my list.

One of my items is "Expand my CD, DVD and book collection", and that's what I did! Well... except for the books part. All the ones I have here are already "old" (not that they're actually old, but I bought them last year, so you know).

I bought three music DVDs, and here they are:

Sublime, Rage and Alanis. My new babies.

Annnnddd also I bought my birthday gift. No, I didn't turn 18 yet, my birthday is actually in June 3rd, but I was just too anxious and I had some money in my pocket, so I bought this beautiful trilogy of The Godfather.

"O Poderoso Chefão" is actually a pretty fucked up translation to "The Godfather". Literally, it means "The Powerful Big Boss". Weird, isn't it?

Now my new CDs. Well, actually the CDs (and the DVDs, except for The Godfather box) are not "new". I bought from a guy who already owned them, and now he's selling his stuff because he needs some money. I gotta thank God for having a guy like this living near me.

The Strokes and Counting Crows!

This The Strokes CD (which is a limited special edition) costed me only R$ 10 (equivalent to US$ 6,30), and the Counting Crows one costed me R$ 5 (US$ 3,17). Pretty cheap, uh?!

This is me trying to introduce myself.

My name is Naiara, I'm 17 years old and live in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil. I do play guitar and sing, but not very well.

I'm a bored kid. I always wrote blogs about my life, but this is the first time I write one in English. And don't ask why, but I always wanted to write a blog in English, but I was scared. Maybe because English is not my first language (neither is Spanish or "Brazilian" - that's not even a language!) and I was afraid of making terrible spelling mistakes.

I'm not gonna lie, but what inspired me to create this blog was... fashion blogs. Yes. I was stalking some fashion blogs and thinking "wow, that's pretty cool", but then I realized that I'm not a fashionista or whatever you call someone who runs a fashion blog. So I thought about posting my very own ordinary outfits sometimes, with clothes you actually can afford.

And no, I am not an exchange student travelling around the world and there are not going to have photos of the Eiffel Tower or the Coliseum on this blog. I am still in High School, and even if I wasn't, I wouldn't have enough money to afford a trip. But I still have my dreams, and one of them is to travel to Canada someday. And I'm not gonna give up on my dream.

No, this is not a fashion blog. This is just a regular blog about an ordinary girl who's bored with her life and wants to share her (few) experiences with the world.

This is my School ID picture. I kinda like it.

I hope you enjoy it! xxxx